From: Me

So my past posts have been pretty serious. I'm not really a serious guy all of the time so that past blogs have been pretty dull to read. I understand this. I am aware of this. I would like to make it up to you. I'll still tell you all about my life but I'm going to do it in a more story like way. We'll see if this flows any better.

So I just went to Beefaroo. It's a weird fast food restaurant that is only in Rockford. Apparantly they have tons-o-flavors to choose from in the milk shake variety. I have yet to have one of these delicious and yet oh, so abundant ice cream, drinkable treats. I'm sure they are delicious. I choose Steak'n'Shake. Stick to your roots.

I'm also figuring out if the church is where I'll be living vocationally. I think the answer is a "no" for a bit. My problem is not with the church and what it might do to me. My problem is with me and what I might do to the church. I'm not ready to be up and leading people spiritually. I am not myself ready spiritually, physically or mentally to do the whole "work at a church" thing right now. What I want to do is to take whatever talents I have, work towards something, make a few bucks that way, get some life experience being clueless in my endeavors but still endeavor-ing and go from there. I'm not worried about how things will pan out. I am a little worried that I might miss a big sign to go a certain way but ultimately, if I'm supposed to be somewhere and my heart and mind are set in finding that destination, I will eventually arrive. It just makes sense.

I am finding that this summer is not necessarily giving me a ton of answers but instead just giving me more questions. It has answered a couple of things for me already but it has also given me a lot to ponder. It's a lot like the series LOST. (by the way, I'm addicted to the show, I've just started watching it, and I can't stop. I'm half way through season 2 and it's only been a week. Yikes.) (that was a long parentheses) It's a lot like the series LOST because my life has given me a lot of questions and once I've arrived here (my own little island), I've been given a couple answers but ultimately, I may or may not be more and more confused without fully knowing if that is true or not. My buddy Dugan explained Lost like this: It's a puzzle with all of the pieces flipped over so you can piece them together but you don't know what the picture looks like. My life right now is that. I have questions that are being answered but I still have a lot more questions to piece together. However, I have no idea what the heck my picture looks. It's a good metaphor.

Anywho, that is my life for right now. Still moving forward. Still smiling through it all. Still tired most of the time. But I'm in an exciting time in my life. I like it.